little death

i can actually say im happy today. there is no real reason. i just feel at peace and like im finally happy. i dont know why. i just woke up today feeling great.

yesterday after work i went to see the oral surgeon again. this time it was actually the one who took out my wisdom teeth. she took a look in my mouth and told me that i have a dry socket. OUCH! she irrigated both the right side (which has the dry socket) and the left side just in case. she used this syringe with water in it to clean it out. the right side wasnt pleasant. but she put a dressing inside of it and just like she said (20 min later) i was feeling A LOT better. sucks that i got a dry socket though. now it'll take a few weeks to heal. wisdom teeth removal sucks. its such a long healing process. ive read it takes up to a month for it to heal, and then you still have holes where food can get stuck for several months after. GREAT! just want i want to deal with. i just want to be able to open my mouth fully and eat real good again. i know ive lost some weight. my clothes fits better. like these pants im wearing today were my "tight" work pants. i couldnt wear them comfortably. and now, i can! idk about any of the rest of my clothes, ive only worn pajamas and work clothes since they were taken out. but im feeling good!

after the dentist i went and saw my friend ty. i havent seen him in like 2 years. we've talked on and off for about 6 now. it was alright at first. then his friends just showed up out of no where and started smoking weed. i left. i felt uncomfortable. he keeps saying he wants to hang out, but i dont know. i came home and relaxed. showered. tried to sleep but couldnt. ended up texting with michael for a couple hours and it was great. i miss him. i really hope i can see him soon. and i would like to see him more. but who knows if that'll even be possible when we both start school.

its thursday, im supposed to have bowling. i might go hang out there. i kind of want to, but i'd rather hang out with someone else.